January, a time of change

 

It is January again. One of the months that changes so much in my life, both for loss and wonder.

  I was born in Januaray, two of my cousins and a myriad of friends. 

I also lost my Dad, Alex and just this year, a dear friend and neighbor.  

The rest of the (Northern) world may be dormant, but to me, January will always be change.

Eve, above, has been staying with me for a couple of months. She is a good roomie and keeps me centered and aware of joy. In this photo, she just finished a dash of tag with Kit. Yes, Kit is still doing fine and really appreciates having a Terv to play and wrestle with. Note her "READY?" look? I can never recreate that for the cat! LOL

I miss Alex, I miss my Dad, and I miss Loraine. 

I love my friends and family that share this month with me.

I am excited to be selling cuff bracelets to support the Gastric Cancer study this month.

The doctor in charge, Christine McNiel, is coming to our ABTC National in April and I am so excited!

Now, to make enough to pay for those expenses and I am happy. :)

Have a wonderful year, all!

A lifetime of Octobers, not enough...

 

Autumn, one of our best times

The above is from the October / November 2013 TNT - our ad, paid for by your shirts.
The hope is to raise awareness and pass the word! We need more samples from more dogs, both sick and healthy.  Please help us and your Tervuren?

The photo below is an October collage of Alex. The new cool fall air was always his favorite!
Hug yours, have a wonderful day!

 

We lost Finn, the last of our Mt Hope troop

Alex has been gone only 6 months. Carlos, 6 years and Gregor a bit longer.
It is sad to report that Finn has now gone to join them. Good, in that Finn lived a long and mostly healthy life - over 14.5 years old.

We love you Finn! Give our best to the other guys - you all know how to fill a room!   And a ♡.

4 months gone...

It has been four months since Alex left for his next great adventure. I miss him. Life is starting to settle to a new normal. Kit-man is waiting for me to take up the slack for playtime. I am not even as good at it as Alex was.

We sold 178 shirts for donations to the Stomach Cancer Study - http://health.ovbtc.com.   Made over $2000, spent part of it on ads for the next year in TNT (Tervs 'n Tails) to let folks know about the study and how to participate. I am hopeful that these funds will be spent to help folks send necropsies in to the study.  More detailed information will hopefully gain more answers.

I picked up this bleeding heart today and planted it right in front of Alex's favorite - the daylillies. This may be the first year they have bloomed in full since he got here! He loved to sit and lay in them. The broad, cool leaves were his favorite! This is where I have placed Alex's ashes to rest. It seems appropriate.

Thank you all for helping with the sales and the study! Good news - if it helps our furry friends, it will likely also help us. 

Thank you to all my friends, Belgian and otherwise that have chosen to support the fundraiser we started several weeks ago. We are down to the last few days and have sold over 115 shirts!  I love you all!

Alex sends licks and kicks, flying in the air where ever he is.

Three weeks

It has been three weeks. Almost to the hour.

While I have tried to stay positive and keep busy with work and the fundraiser, there are moments.  I am glad I took several days off work in the first week. I did healing and fun things with friends and always, he was there. Those of you that have lost a partner, pet or otherwise, will know it is the odd moments and simple flashbacks that get you...

• My plates don't get as clean after dinner.
• The yogurt cups seem to have a lot of leftovers in the bottom now.
• My first neighborhood walk to the coffee shop (alone) felt strange, yet somehow, he was there.
• I have set off the house alarm twice, because I no longer have a pattern to getting up and going to bed.
• The cat doesn't have anyone else to play with - that one is odd on many levels!
• My suv was cleaned and is in the "human" back seat up position - weird!!!
• I cried all the way home from work Thursday because it was a beautiful day and Alex was not here to go for a walk when I got home.
• After weeks of canned food, my recycle bin is back to normal fill. 
• The cat is craving soft food for the first time in 12 years. He was sneaking Alex's canned, I think.
• Mornings are not the same. Period.
• The cat can now eat on the floor, instead of jumping up to the "cat counter" to keep Alex from his food.
• No one waits for me to finish each task to go on to the next one - showering, laundry, I am used to seeing him sitting expectantly at a door, on the bed, top/bottom of stairs, ready for the next shift in location. So empty to go up or down stairs and have no one waiting at the other end.
• It is strange to go someplace alone - anyplace. Alex was always ready to go along. I feel like I should take the cat, but I am sure he would not appreciate the substitution.
• No one nudges me to remind me there are leftovers on the counter.
• I know that the day-lillies in the spring will always remind me of him. 
• hundreds more...

These are just some of the moments that have 'hit' me over the past twenty one days. Is that all it was? 21 vs. 3,184 days with this prince of friends.

I have found that losing and sharing that loss is not the same as it was for my last GSD. When Geena left us after choking on a ball (2001), I felt horribly guilty. I SHOULD have been able to DO something!  I had to tell people and a friend told me that he heard it would get better after I told 30 people.  In hindsight, I think he was correct.

That does not work in the days of internet and Facebook. Hundreds of people know now, but I doubt I have told 30 in person. Still, today, it was still difficult to say the words to a friend at work.

Thank you for letting me share this moment.

If there is anything YOU can do, it is to learn about your breed, your dog and it's medical history, strengths and weaknesses.  Share your stories and your records with those that are keeping track for the improvement of all.  Love them. Always.

the colorful guys came out today, had to refill the feeder

Birds, especially in winter, are amazing.

50 shirts sold so far!!

Alex and I thank each and every one of you for supporting Belgian
Health and Cancer Research!!

18 days until orders close!

Pat

Belgian Health fundraiser for 2013

BELGIAN HEALTH /CANCER RESEARCH FUNDRAISER!!   42 shirts so far!!

Members of the Belgian community - this offer for Belgian shirts is good until February 20! 

February 20 we go to print with whatever is ordered. If you have a regional club or local group and want to order bulk, please DO!! 

If you want to gather orders and have them bulk shipped to your area, we can and would LOVE to do this!

Bulk or single orders in by February 20 will be shipped to you by March 15. Sign 'em up!!

Thanks to the ABTC for allowing us to link to the Health information already gathered on that site. 

There is much more work to do and I hope you will all share this site and information with your clubs and Belgian friends.

http://health.ovbtc.com

Now, let's sell some shirts and save a Belgian!!

Orders in by February 20 for delivery at Louisville, March 15!  Like Belgians - you can't have just one!

Bulk orders can be done for clubs, so share this information! 

Contact belgian.health@gmail.com. 

Yours,

Pat Heisler, in memory of Alex

http://alex-tervuren.blogspot.com

Please cross post!

Call from Tufts this morning

Tufts University just called and thanked me for the samples we sent of
Alex's tissue. I told Kristin about our fundraiser and story. She was
very nice and thankful.
I feel good about what we have done and are doing. They need more
information to help our friends.
Please consider sending tissue samples to Tufts if you suspect cancer.
Information can be found on the ABTC Health webpage, found one click
away from our own http://health.ovbtc.com/.
It only cost $83 at my vet. We are hoping to find a way to put these
shirt funds into reimbursing owners for this service. ♡

Total Belgian party will break out for breakfast!

The details that Kate Stevenson and I have been playing with all night
are fixed and ready. Not much reason to hold off any longer.

Ok, maybe one more sneak preview :)

Pat, in memory of Alex and all the Belgians he will play with tomorrow

Are you ready to welcome these guys into your heart?

The tougher question is, "Are we ever ready to lose them?"

Our Belgian Health needs YOU!

Wanna name these guys? Tommy Terv and Lyle Laeken?
You can do better!

Belgian #3 - the youngest leads the team!

Watch www.ovbtc.com for details in the coming hours!!

Pat Heisler
In memory of Alex, thank you for helping us help our Belgians!
photos property of PH and Belgian Health.

Belgians are coming! part 2!

Are you ready for the next big thing?

Sneak preview attached, of the biggest fundraiser (yet) for 2013!!

Watch www.ovbtc.com for details in the coming hours!!


In memory of Alex, thank you for helping us help our Belgians!

 photos property of PH and Belgian Health.

Rolling into Belgian Land for February!!

Are you ready for the next big thing?

Sneak preview attached, of the biggest fundraiser (yet) for 2013!!

Watch www.ovbtc.com for details in the coming days!!

Pat Heisler

  Thanks to Sandy Stealey for what is to come!!

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Picked up Alex's remains today

I picked up Alex's cremation remains today.
Brooke Cole was with me and the folks at Park Hills were wonderful as always!
Unexpectedly, they made a clay pawprint of Alex's paw, baked it for me and put his name into it.
Thank you, Norma!   So very kind.



Since this is partly about feelings and partly about "what is," this is how the bill broke down:
Digital Radiography  $75.00
Cremation     $145.00
Euthanasia w/pre-sedation      $65.00
Necropsy (for Tufts)      $83.00

I am thankful the team at Park Hills Animal Hospital was there for both of us.

Thank you Dr. Collette and team for sending this in for Alex

Dr. C called today, after preparing the samples to send to Tufts.
The cancer was greatly spread through out the stomach and there was a perforation the size of a nickel in the stomach wall.  He is still amazed at how Alex was able to walk in to the office on Friday.
Alex was a strong Belgian with a strong heart.

Stomach Cancer Study

Enrollment Instructions
Tufts Harrington Oncology Program
Blood: 6ml of blood in an EDTA tube. • Completed participant information form below
• Please FedEx the samples: Please call us for a FedEx account numberUse Standard overnightWrite "Please refrigerate upon arrival" on the box.Please Address to: Kristin Simon, BS
Tufts Cummings School of Veterinary Medicine
200 Westboro Road
FHSA Room 215
North Grafton, MA
Phone: 508-887-4422
kristin.marshall@tufts.edu If samples are taken on a Friday: please refrigerate blood. Ship out on Monday. 
-----------------------------Return Below Portion with Shipment------------
 Owner Information Name: 
Mailing Address:
Phone: Email: Dog Information Call Name: Date of Birth:
Registered Name: Breed:
AKC (or Other) Registration #: Please attach pedigree if available Sex: Male Male Neutered Female Female Spayed Affected participants: (Please include biopsy report if available)
Date of Diagnosis ______________ Biopsy Diagnosis ______________
Biopsy Location ________________ Other Disease ________________
Please Acknowledge and Sign: I give Dr. Elizabeth McNiel and her direct collaborators permission to use this sample for research purposes. I understand that any pedigree information or data specific to my dog will be kept confidential and any publications resulting from these studies will not include any information that will make it possible to identify a subject. In addition, I understand that I will not receive individual results regarding my dog as a result of these studies.
Signature: Date:

Alex, March 8, 2004 ~ January 18, 2013

Alex would have only been nine in March. 

This blog has been about his life and I have tried not to make it about mine (too much). 

We shared experiences great and small.  Alex brought me great friends.  I love each and every one of you. Know that he did. All I had to do was say one of your names and he would look eagerly to the appropriate direction.

It is strange being home alone. (Don't tell the cat I said that! He is trying his furry best.)  Alex has only spent a handful of nights not here or with our neighbors. One night in the animal hospital when he was six months old and one week with Sue Young when I had surgery for my broken ankle.  Neither prepared me for what this would be like. 

I was awake much of last night. When I did sleep, it was on the couch. This cannot go on for long. Obviously!

Brooke and I are heading out for an adventure to Jungle Jim's Eastgate today. I told her we would need a photo of both of us, to prove to later years that I did not mope on my birthday, but pushed out and about. Alex would be proud. He was the bounce back kid, the rubber dog, never down, rarely out.

.....

Just got back to this and realized I had never published. We had our trip to Jungle Jim's, picked up neighbor Finn from Pet Suites and am now home, just finishing sushi.  All in all, a good distraction, but not enough. 

Sleep well, my friend.

Alex joins his friends

This is a photo I took several years ago of my Carlos, Alex and Gregor the deerhound, December 2005. 

They are now all running together again. 

After Alex and I walked today, I gave him a bath to wash the urine out of his coat where he had been laying. While I was sitting on the floor, brushing and drying, some bright yellow urine dripped on my leg. Lightbulbs came on and I realized that while he had not actually peed in a couple of days, he was slow leaking the entire time.  I had thought he was just wetting the bed, but all of a sudden, I was just as sure I had been wrong. I called the vet back and we went over right away. I thought perhaps there was a blockage preventing him from going.  For the first time since this whole thing started, I felt a sense of urgency, like I could and should do something sooner rather than later - and that it might have some (even short term) effect. 

Alex weighed in at 63 lbs.  Wasn't that long ago he was 52.7. I knew there was no way that was good, with his bones still showing alarmingly. Dr. Collette felt his abdomen and said he felt distended. They took x-rays in the back room. Dr C came out and took me back to look. "Not good," he said quietly.  Alex's stomach was filled with blood.  He said he was surprised he had looked/acted so good when we came in, seeing this blood now. 

There was only one decision to make and time was no longer on our side. We all kissed Alex good-bye and held him, letting him go on his way to join his old friends. 

I did have them send the blood and samples to Tufts. It is all I can do for the next Tervuren and their people. Maybe someday.

Thank you, ♡